If you told anyone else, they would not believe you, [ he teases and reaches for a cloth to lather with soap. This did serve a dual purpose after all. ]
No, they wouldn't. I think many of them are still reeling over the fact that Mythal's favored requested me specifically.
[He missed the warmth and comfort having Solas' arms around him brought, but they did have all night for more if he wanted. He was curious to see just where this would go, while bathing with someone was relatively new, at least like this, there were a few clients of his that didn't mind a romp in the bath, or even to just watch him bathe while they took care of their own matters.
Of course Solas didn't really seem the type to be so adventurous so soon. At least not with a near stranger, but at the same time Lad struggled to think why else Solas would be willing to bathe with him. He was trying to understand, but there were still other things about the man that perplexed him.]
I saw a kind heart, one that is rare. I was unsure if you would be interested but--
[ But he had requested Lad when he could no longer dodge the gift from Sylaise. He's not sure what he had expected when Lad's training and typical duties required of him to please those he was with though Solas hoped he had not overstepped any boundaries.
Cloth lathered he offers another and the soap to Lad, assuming the man would want to clean himself. ]
I am grateful you were. [ For if he had sensed any hesitation, he would not have done anything with Lad. ]
[He took the cloth and gently starts lathering himself up. Of course with his teachings, he knew how to do so while still ensuring he looking alluring doing it. It was just a matter of emphasizing his physical attributes with drawn out graceful movements, and occasionally making eye contact when they spoke, to encourage Solas' gaze to be on him.]
You're very handsome, and you were so gentle before when you tended to my wounds. [He smiled at the memory, truthfully he had been hoping for a way to pay back the kind stranger that had helped him. Once he learned who the man was however, didn't thinks he'd have the opportunity.] And to be honest, I haven't had sex that good in ages. I've never been allowed to indulge myself so much before.
[ It's hard to avoid watching Lad with how they were sitting. He clears his throat awkwardly and tries to focus on cleaning himself, stealing glances as Lad worries about himself. ]
You appeared as if you were enjoying yourself. I was concerned, [ he admits. Concerned that Lad had done it all, was merely putting on a show. That he genuinely enjoyed himself helped. ]
[Lad shifted his hair off to one side, and tilted his head accordingly to expose his neck, giving Solas a nice view as he washed.]
Concerned? Over what?
[His mind couldn't quite follow Solas' reasoning. It was his duty to pleasure others after all. Why would him doing that be a concern? Solas' last statement was almost as curious, Lad simply assumed he was referring to their little secret rule breaking.]
About your enjoyment? Or desire to do it at all? [ he asks, brow raised. He's watching Lad, but keeping his focus on the man's expression.
Did he truly not think of it like that? That this life was simply how things were? There were better things out there for him. As soon as he was able, he'd speak to Mythal about this because the implications were concerning. ]
[Solas’ stare gave him pause, something about the expression wasn’t right, at least not right in what he was trying to accomplish.]
Solas, I’m a slave without anyone’s favor. None of that is important, it’s just something nice to look forward to when it does happen. At the end of the day I’m just as bound to my duties as you are.
[Such has been the case with Solas, but that was rare. Very rare. He honestly had never had sex with someone as gentle and affectionate as Solas had been. But it wasn’t something he should be getting used to. At best it would be a nice treat when Mythal’s people visited. Otherwise he’d be back to the same routine.]
That does not mean you are without worth, Ladanelan.
[ Because he wonders if the man realizes that. He keeps his gaze steady with Lad's, hands stilling. Something had to change, something would bend and buckle. How long until he was tired of playing his own part in this charade?
He needed to speak with Mythal more than he knew. ]
[Another odd question. It wasn’t something he thought was very relevant. What did it matter in the end? He would still have to do the work regardless, and he considered himself lucky in regards of his work versus others. He ate better, his beatings were less severe, and at least his work could feel good with the right client.]
He preferred to teach, to learn and share his knowledge with others. That was only one of his strengths, his others had overshadowed it in terms of his usefulness. His role as a trusted strategist and general of sorts had brought him greater favor, but it was not the work he was happiest doing. ]
[He shrugged, thinking he wasn't much different. Of course he had very little to compare it to, he only saw those that served Sylaise. Aside from the guests of those that visited, but he never got to see how they lived their lives day to day.]
It's the same for me. There are good days and bad days, people I like to work with and people I don't. As long as I do what I'm told, I'm treated well. I'm lucky my duty is what it is, there are a lot of worse alternatives.
[Of course most people didn't have to sleep with those they didn't care for, but Lad just thought of it as another part of his job.]
[He gave Solas a curious look, though there was some humor behind it. They were speaking the same language and yet it was almost as though they were having two entirely different conversations. He was trying to figure out what Solas was getting at, but he couldn't quite place a finger on it.]
This would not be my duty if I was not found to be good at it in some sense. [He supposed he should be proud of that, he was attractive, more than others if he had been trained for this duty and no others. Though there could be another reason, and he laughed thinking about it as he went back to washing himself.] Or maybe I'm just that bad at other tasks.
I have been called strange and worse many times before.
[ The notion was not new to him. He shakes his head and once he feels he's clean enough, he's rinsing out his cloth to set aside to dry. Lad had his full attention now though his interest was clearly on the man's face and words rather than the rest of his features. ]
What do you enjoy doing? [ Because surely Sylaise allowed them hobbies. ]
[Confusing as well, but the way his face scrunched up when he thought was cute. Though he was a little frustrated his efforts to look appealing were going unnoticed, so he simply gave up on the endeavor. He placed his cloth off to the side and leaned back against Solas while he went about answering his question with a shrug.]
I’m usually too busy to indulge myself. A lot of people come through here for our services. Even on slower days I’ll just accept some of the lower ranking slaves stopping by, since they seem to need it.
[ He blinks back his surprise as his arms rest comfortably around Lad. Solas is trying very hard to imagine what a typical day must appear like for Lad and his fellows. It's damn near impossible for him. ]
Does that not get tiring? I cannot imagine doing this all day with others.
[He says as he settles contently in Solas' arms. Sure he was exhausted by the end of a day, but wasn't that normal? Of course his work required a different sort of stamina than working in a kitchen, but both were still tough duties.]
It's usually a little easier if you don't get yourself off until the last few clients if you can help it. As one with a lower rank I generally don't spend too much time with clients, more often than not I just get bent over a table or bed and they do what they will.
[That wasn't always the case, but it happened enough to make the day easier to take.]
[ He can't withhold the visible way he winces at the way Lad puts it. Because that was far from 'work' to him, that was demeaning and he feels a pang of guilt for the part he's now played in it though Lad had made it sound as if this had been different. ]
[He laughed and turned around so he could face Solas. Of course that meant he was pressing against him chest-to-chest, but that felt good for him, and he suspected Solas as well, so he didn't see how it might be awkward. It made it easier for him to drape his free arm around Solas' neck and lean up to kiss his cheek.]
I had a lot of fun with you, I don't usually get that. You're gentle and... [He paused to try and think how to put it, but he couldn't find the words for it.] it's hard to explain but I like the way you touch me. It's different.
[ The temptation was there to wrap his arms around him, to rest his forehead against Lad's' and simply breath. No wonder the man was good at his given profession. The change in positioning causes him to tense for a moment before he eases and loosely rests an arm around his waist. ]
Will you tell me if I overstep your boundaries? If I do something you do not want? [ If the man even had boundaries. ]
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You do not need to thank me.
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[He missed the warmth and comfort having Solas' arms around him brought, but they did have all night for more if he wanted. He was curious to see just where this would go, while bathing with someone was relatively new, at least like this, there were a few clients of his that didn't mind a romp in the bath, or even to just watch him bathe while they took care of their own matters.
Of course Solas didn't really seem the type to be so adventurous so soon. At least not with a near stranger, but at the same time Lad struggled to think why else Solas would be willing to bathe with him. He was trying to understand, but there were still other things about the man that perplexed him.]
I'm still trying to believe it myself.
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[ But he had requested Lad when he could no longer dodge the gift from Sylaise. He's not sure what he had expected when Lad's training and typical duties required of him to please those he was with though Solas hoped he had not overstepped any boundaries.
Cloth lathered he offers another and the soap to Lad, assuming the man would want to clean himself. ]
I am grateful you were. [ For if he had sensed any hesitation, he would not have done anything with Lad. ]
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You're very handsome, and you were so gentle before when you tended to my wounds. [He smiled at the memory, truthfully he had been hoping for a way to pay back the kind stranger that had helped him. Once he learned who the man was however, didn't thinks he'd have the opportunity.] And to be honest, I haven't had sex that good in ages. I've never been allowed to indulge myself so much before.
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You appeared as if you were enjoying yourself. I was concerned, [ he admits. Concerned that Lad had done it all, was merely putting on a show. That he genuinely enjoyed himself helped. ]
You are free to act as you wish here.
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Concerned? Over what?
[His mind couldn't quite follow Solas' reasoning. It was his duty to pleasure others after all. Why would him doing that be a concern? Solas' last statement was almost as curious, Lad simply assumed he was referring to their little secret rule breaking.]
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Did he truly not think of it like that? That this life was simply how things were? There were better things out there for him. As soon as he was able, he'd speak to Mythal about this because the implications were concerning. ]
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Solas, I’m a slave without anyone’s favor. None of that is important, it’s just something nice to look forward to when it does happen. At the end of the day I’m just as bound to my duties as you are.
[Such has been the case with Solas, but that was rare. Very rare. He honestly had never had sex with someone as gentle and affectionate as Solas had been. But it wasn’t something he should be getting used to. At best it would be a nice treat when Mythal’s people visited. Otherwise he’d be back to the same routine.]
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[ Because he wonders if the man realizes that. He keeps his gaze steady with Lad's, hands stilling. Something had to change, something would bend and buckle. How long until he was tired of playing his own part in this charade?
He needed to speak with Mythal more than he knew. ]
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Of course I am worth something! I may not be the highest ranking, but I do my job well enough, and I am attractive.
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Are you happy with your work then? [ He had sounded fearful, scared to misstep even slightly in the eyes of those 'higher' than him. ]
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Are you happy with yours?
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He preferred to teach, to learn and share his knowledge with others. That was only one of his strengths, his others had overshadowed it in terms of his usefulness. His role as a trusted strategist and general of sorts had brought him greater favor, but it was not the work he was happiest doing. ]
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It's the same for me. There are good days and bad days, people I like to work with and people I don't. As long as I do what I'm told, I'm treated well. I'm lucky my duty is what it is, there are a lot of worse alternatives.
[Of course most people didn't have to sleep with those they didn't care for, but Lad just thought of it as another part of his job.]
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You should be treated well for what you do, [ he says with a shake of his head. ] There are not many that take pride in bringing joy to others.
[ Or so he hoped he was understanding this correctly. ]
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[He gave Solas a curious look, though there was some humor behind it. They were speaking the same language and yet it was almost as though they were having two entirely different conversations. He was trying to figure out what Solas was getting at, but he couldn't quite place a finger on it.]
This would not be my duty if I was not found to be good at it in some sense. [He supposed he should be proud of that, he was attractive, more than others if he had been trained for this duty and no others. Though there could be another reason, and he laughed thinking about it as he went back to washing himself.] Or maybe I'm just that bad at other tasks.
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[ The notion was not new to him. He shakes his head and once he feels he's clean enough, he's rinsing out his cloth to set aside to dry. Lad had his full attention now though his interest was clearly on the man's face and words rather than the rest of his features. ]
What do you enjoy doing? [ Because surely Sylaise allowed them hobbies. ]
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[Confusing as well, but the way his face scrunched up when he thought was cute. Though he was a little frustrated his efforts to look appealing were going unnoticed, so he simply gave up on the endeavor. He placed his cloth off to the side and leaned back against Solas while he went about answering his question with a shrug.]
I’m usually too busy to indulge myself. A lot of people come through here for our services. Even on slower days I’ll just accept some of the lower ranking slaves stopping by, since they seem to need it.
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[ He blinks back his surprise as his arms rest comfortably around Lad. Solas is trying very hard to imagine what a typical day must appear like for Lad and his fellows. It's damn near impossible for him. ]
Does that not get tiring? I cannot imagine doing this all day with others.
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[He says as he settles contently in Solas' arms. Sure he was exhausted by the end of a day, but wasn't that normal? Of course his work required a different sort of stamina than working in a kitchen, but both were still tough duties.]
It's usually a little easier if you don't get yourself off until the last few clients if you can help it. As one with a lower rank I generally don't spend too much time with clients, more often than not I just get bent over a table or bed and they do what they will.
[That wasn't always the case, but it happened enough to make the day easier to take.]
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And that is simply work for you?
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[He watched Solas' reaction with some concern, and reached up to stroke the side of his face with the back of his fingers in comfort.]
What's wrong?
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I did not mean to take advantage of you like the others.
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[He laughed and turned around so he could face Solas. Of course that meant he was pressing against him chest-to-chest, but that felt good for him, and he suspected Solas as well, so he didn't see how it might be awkward. It made it easier for him to drape his free arm around Solas' neck and lean up to kiss his cheek.]
I had a lot of fun with you, I don't usually get that. You're gentle and... [He paused to try and think how to put it, but he couldn't find the words for it.] it's hard to explain but I like the way you touch me. It's different.
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Will you tell me if I overstep your boundaries? If I do something you do not want? [ If the man even had boundaries. ]
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