[The entire concept of what he wanted was still somewhat beyond his grasp. So long had he learned that personal desire was wrong, and to act on it would mean pain or death. Now, desperately trying to make sense of Solas' offer, his mind fell back on what he was taught.]

I will be punished if I linger solely for my own pleasure... [Though that did imply that he considered this a pleasure at least.] I will already be punished for breaking the rules...